I just got off the phone with A, and she told me the things you told her.
First, I know you're feelings are hurt right now, and I was planning on helping you smooth things over with J.
The main thing I'm going to focus on right now is the fact that you and L purposely and willfully destroyed our good and happy marriage. You can pretend all you want that we weren't happy, but I remember very clearly that we were. When you and I decided to get back together again, I asked you, "Do you want to get back together with me because you love me and want another try at making our marriage work, or are you doing this just because you think you should do it because J isn't 21 yet?" You told me you loved me and really wanted to make our marriage work. I told you that the only way I was going to get back together with you was (1) if J agreed, and (2) if you really were in the marriage for me because you love me. I told you VERY CLEARLY that I would never get back together with you if you didn't feel that way. You said absolutely, and I believed you. I gave our marriage 100% from the day we decided to get back together, and I trusted you did too.
No one was more stunned than I was when you told me you were leaving me, and that you had found someone else! What happened to my honorable man? I trusted you! I always thought you were honorable before that, but then I discovered that you were NOT the man I thought you to be! I even tried to get you back, went to the dealership to bring you home, but you had already left me, heart, body, and soul, and now I discover that you have told yourself, and probably anyone else you have talked to, that you and I got back together as a "BUSINESS ARRANGEMENT!!!???" OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? This is a fucking lie! I was in the marriage 100%, and I thought you were too. If I had known you were coming back as a FUCKING BUSINESS ARRANGEMENT, I would NEVER have taken you back! This "Business Arrangement" was all in your head!
L IS A FUCKING HOME-WRECKER!!! J TOLD HER THE TRUTH!!! YOU LIED!!! YOU AND L DESTROYED OUR FAMILY AND SENT OUR SON INTO A DEVASTATING DOWNWARD SPIRAL!!! I FULLY BLAME YOU AND L FOR HIS SCHIZOPHRENIA!!! HE WASN'T SICK UNTIL YOU DESTROYED OUR FAMILY!!! YOU BROKE YOUR OWN SON!!!
NOT ONLY THAT, BUT I WAS SO DEVASTATED AT YOUR BETRAYAL OF ME AND OUR MARRIAGE, THAT I COULDN'T EVEN SEE MY FRIENDS FOR OVER A YEAR. I STOPPED TALKING TO EVERYONE. I HID FROM THE WORLD! YOU BROKE MY HEART!!! YOU BROKE MY SPIRIT!!! YOU DEVASTATED ME!!!
AT J'S WEDDING, YOU HAD THE FUCKING NERVE TO STAND RIGHT NEXT TO ME AND TELL EVERYONE THAT YOU KNEW THAT FUCKING L WAS YOUR FUCKING SOUL-MATE THE MINUTE YOU FUCKING MET HER!!! YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITE!!! YOU FUCKING LIER!!! DOES L KNOW THAT YOU TOLD ME THOSE SAME WORDS FOR DECADES BEFORE SHE CAME ALONG AND WRECKED OUR MARRIAGE??? DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOU HAD SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT LEAVING ME FOR HER? DOES SHE KNOW YOU PUT OUT FEELERS ABOUT GETTING BACK TOGETHER WITH ME, AND I TOLD YOU, "YOU'D BETTER MAKE IT WORK WITH HER BECAUSE I'LL NEVER TAKE YOU BACK AGAIN!"?
I couldn't believe that L made me fucking hug her at J's wedding! What a fucking nerve, trying to make herself feel better for what she did, like everything was okay, and everything was forgiven, because she forced me to hug her or cause a fucking scene at my son's wedding. I was willing to be gracious and give her a friendly handshake, and that was generous after she destroyed our marriage! But I sure as hell didn't want to hug the bitch!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE WROTE ON HER FACEBOOK PAGE THAT YOU TWO HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 12 YEARS!!! DOESN'T SHE REALIZE THAT SHE IS ADMITTING THAT SHE IS A FUCKING HOME-WRECKER??? AFTER ALL, WE WERE STILL HAPPILY MARRIED 12 YEARS AGO!!! I REMEMBER!!! AND NO AMOUNT OF YOUR LIES WILL CHANGE THAT!
All she wants from you is your money. You make money and she spends it. She spent you dry. And you let her, even encouraged her. You're an idiot!
I'M OVER YOU, AND I'M MUCH BETTER OFF WITH D, BUT YOU ARE A LIER ... YOU ARE TELLING PEOPLE THAT OUR MARRIAGE WAS A LIE!!! THAT'S A FUCKING LIE! YOU'RE A LIER, AND I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'M CRYING BROKEN-HEARTED, AGAIN, DEVASTATED BECAUSE OF YOU! BECAUSE YOU TURNED OUT TO BE A LIE. BECAUSE YOU TURNED OUT NOT TO BE THE MAN I THOUGHT YOU WERE. BECAUSE YOU TURNED US AND YEARS OF MARRIAGE INTO A LIE. BECAUSE YOU ARE DISHONORABLE!!! YOU'RE NOT FUCKING WORTH IT!!!
And there are so many more lies you've told, but I just no longer care. You and your over-inflated ego. Trying to convince yourself that you were so good, so righteous, trying to convince yourself that I did all these terrible things to make yourself feel better. I just no longer care about those lies. This lie was the whopper that topped all other lies, and I'm done.
I DON'T CARE IF J NEVER TALKS TO YOU AGAIN! I'VE TOLERATED A LOT OF THE CRAP I'VE HEARD YOU SAYING ABOUT ME, BUT I'M DONE! I WILL NO LONGER TRY TO DEFEND YOUR BEHAVIOR TO OTHER PEOPLE, BECAUSE YOU TURNED ME, NO US, INTO NOTHING WITH YOUR LIES. YOU ERASED US. AND NOW YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT.
The last years of our marriage were good. I loved you with all my heart, and thought you loved me the same. I had no idea what you planned, what you were doing. That old saying is so true, "The wife is always the last to know.". So stunned by what you did. So stunned ...
I don't believe in revisionist history, and you are nothing more than a revisionist so you can try to feel better about what you did, and what L did.
BTW, I know J has probably stood you up a time or two and maybe said a mean word here and there to you. But I know you've done that to him so many more times than he has done it to you. He is so filled with anger at you because you weren't there for him. Because you were cruel to him when you were there. Who can blame him for being done with you?
I've tried being friendly to you, kind to you, and gracious with you, and even with L, but I'm done.
C, I know this will hurt you, and I'm sorry for that. I don't want to hurt you, but I'm just not going to pull punches with you any more.
Don't call me again. I won't answer, and I'll delete any voice messages you leave. Don't write to me, I will just delete any emails and throw away any letters. I just can't allow you to continue with your lies in my life. If you would fess up and tell the truth, and own what you did, that might be different.
And I won't try to help you mend your relationship with your son. I'm done because I just can't let you keep hurting me. And I just can't let you keep hurting J. You're just not worth that pain. L can have you. You two deserve each other.
Don't contact me again. And leave your son alone. What a shame that you did this. What a shame.
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